clueless

I have a plan, and I’ve been over it backwards and forwards dozens of times and yet I still feel like I have no idea what I’m doing. I’ve moved before. I’ve moved with less certainty about the plan. I just found out today what car I’ll be driving to LA, got a chance to check it out, and it seems like it’ll be ok. No idea if the person who is supposed to help me get a moving truck was successful or not. The company internet went down around lunch time and didn’t come back. No way to check or send email to coworkers.

Drive down and hope the best? That’s crazy!! I reserved a truck through u-haul on Monday as a back up plan. I’m not approved for re-reimbursement at that cost level, but I can’t bear the thought of getting down there and then not having a truck to pack. Especially since I’m out of options. I have to be out by 6/1.

Really I think the thing I’m most worried about is packing the truck. That’s not something I have a lot of experience with. Usually I move a short distance and make many trips. Ideally I could pack in a way so that everything I’m putting in storage is grouped together, and everything I’m bringing to work is together, and all the apt. stuff is together.. but since everything is weird shapes, boxes, furniture, exercise equipment, tools, etc. I fear everything is going to be mixed. I fear unpacking is going to be more difficult than packing. I might have to park the rental truck at work and make trips with my truck to storage (about a mile away, I figured it made more sense to get storage close to work rather than the apt since I hope to move ((EEK!!)) but not change jobs in the future) since storage can’t accommodate a truck longer than 20′.

3 thoughts on “clueless

  1. It’s supposed to be high 90s in Stockton this weekend, and as fast as I want to unpack, I’m definitely going to be taking breaks and drinking lots of water. On the other hand, it’s supposed to gorgeous in LA this weekend, with a high around 80.

    Writing really helps my anxiety. I get a lot of stuff done without writing about it, but I feel like if I could identify and express my feelings about everything I fear, nothing could stop me. I also have a great track record of getting things done when I put my mind to them. I wish I could stop beating myself up, but maybe that’s the secret to my success?

  2. I was looking for something. Something paper. I wish I wrote it down, I forgot. Hands full of papers. Totally forgot what I was looking for. FML.

  3. I so wish I could be there to help! Doing it will relieve the anxiety, and given that storage, work, and your apartment are all close, you may find a couple of things that go to where you’re not at the moment, but it will all work out. I’ll be thinking about you for the next four days!

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